MeMoRieS

2009-11-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

Been long since i updated my blog..

School started since july...been busy working, studying and doing assignments.
Busy Busy Busy till very very stress...... but need to find time to relax and stretch out .....

The year has nearly come to the end...gg to 2010...older ...

SIGh

2009-09-03T17:09:00.000+08:00

Degree classes just started last weekend...Stress arising when class started on last sat...Having 4 days classes last day of class have health assessment test. stress over classes... woke up at 4 plus in the mrng though i slept ard 12am. Woke up early to meet karen for breakfast, a cup of coffee from dearest mama every mrng wakes me up.

Having Class at SGh health promtion...Does nt feel nice...having class at the same place tat we are working..Nt nice coz we don knw wat to makan for lunch. Sian...

4 days of classes stuck together really makes me feel stress as i had nt touch a textbook for 5 years after Poly Grad..

Ytd we did manage to pass our health assessment Practical Test with Good results although it consists of 25% of the whole paper. The 2 lecturers are nice and good ...Really like them. Need to rush the assignment paper but i stuck on the 1st question liao le. Fri got 3 hours examination papers at home with open book... StreSS...

trying to relieve stress by watching Jap drama..bought My handsome butler And 33 min of crime..Gg to start watching.

Tom need to go back to NYp to get my textbook though. Sian

2009-08-18T09:47:00.000+08:00

A lot of things had been gg on...

Friends' relationship problems...My own problems and my Degree course is starting soon... Super stress..

Trying to relax my mind thru toking rubbish online...venting to frens...and finding ways to relieve my own stress..eg shopping, reading my storybooks & most impt watching online dramas.

Trying my very best to save my school fees..stop buying things tat is unnecessary..tink before buying will sve a lot og money. Only buy the ones tat i really really like. Hee hee wat a way to save money!!!

Friends' relationship!!!! Hai... Don really like the feeling of being misunderstood although we had nth in progress.. Frens ONLY.. But lucky he is nt my type.....HENG AH!!! otherwise big problem will arise!!

WAt wrong with being single? there had been ppl asking why why why why why i don have bf? Hmm..is a hard question to answer.
U tell them tat u don hv they don believe!! Wat wrong? ther nt wrong although at times tat u will feel lonely and feel like toking to someone but the someone is nt there. So sian!!
!!

Started my perm night on 16 aug... only my second night and i am super tired liao...

GG TO SLEEP NW..ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2009-08-01T18:18:00.002+08:00

Happy Nurses' day to All the nurses tat i knw.

We hav been thru alot ...experiencing life and death..all kinds of ppl tat no one will imagine to meet up with...But we had survived! YEAH!!!

2009-07-26T01:05:00.001+08:00

Came back from taiwan trip on 16 july...happy abt the trip. had great fun eating shopping & most of the all...GOSSIP. Fun with zy and jm. Phone was nt able to use though so no disturbance during the leave

2009-07-10T02:19:00.002+08:00

1st time blogging at workplace.... Hee hee....

I AM COUNTING DOWN TO MY TAIPEI TRIP.... WHICH IS HAPPENING WITHIN HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!

But i am on night nw ....praying silently that nth will happen for 6 more hours then i will be off from wrk place for 10 days... enjoyin the 7 days at taipei with my daughter and foster daughter... 1st time gg on trip with my satay daughter and 2nd time gg with daughter... Miss loh pei chin cant join us due to her pregnancy... don worry i buy sth back for u kk...

Managed to get free ride from daddy's fren as the 3 of them is gg malaysia tom... so hop on as wat he say ... saving taxi money for the trip although is near to my house ...20 mins using ECP...

I will be transfer back to Central where i 1st started as junior nurse when i grad... hoping everything will go well as i do hate some of the staffs there.... I REALLY MISSED THE OLD KAKIS IN CENTRAL LAST TIME...ESPECIALLY...MY 3 BUNNIES... LILMAY (who is happy married with benjamin), SHOBANA, YANTI.... mY DEAR PRECEPTOR MISS JANET LIM... SANDY KHIN HTUN AND LOTS MORE...AND LASTLY STELLA TOO.. (although at time she is quite fierce but eventually worked out well) & they are putting me to nurse BMT patients..i hate... don like at all... Hmph ANGRY..!!!!

had a whole list of things to buy for frens and a list of thing to buy for myself coz last year i only bought 2 tops and one bag.. so poor thing spent all the money on others...but not on me... so this year i gg to buy alot for myself.

trying to concentrate on my work nw... but unable to try ... coz my mind is all abt tom and the rest of the leave.. Waited for the leave for at least 4-5 mths !!! Must really need to enjoy in order to relieve stress.:P

Will update and post pics when i get back.....

2009-06-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

Nw in counting down mood @ the moment, counting down to Taiwan trip day... 14 days more exact. YEAH YEAH can dance from living rm to kitchen. Hee hee

BONUS DAY. been counting down to pay day on sunday...finally strike 12 midnight on thurs... Money came in liao... to the account tat been decreasing everyday.

Went out today with tjm...suppose to shop for wallet and sandals but in the end i only spend on dinner( neber makan breakfast and lunch) and eyebrow threadin and lastly a cup of lemon tea. Tat all... I should be buying alot of things coz of shopaholic mood... And i did nt buy anything. Jm bought a crumpler and karen bought a pair of Ck shoes...

I wanted to buy coach wallet but the pattern of the wallets is exactly the same as my gucci wallet. In the end buy nth lor... Super sad and depression mood.

Tom gg for pall. talk with zy,jm,suhana & karen. will go to orchard coz i in need of sk2 badly.. All used up, & pimples is coming out due to overuse of surgical masks during night.

Last sun was the last round of perm night with my dear GF KHAD. first night was ok...but second night i must say is Telok, antibiotics nt given on time, chemo to run, blood to take and blood to run. Is a bloody round of night .... Neber even get to eat properly at all and wrote report at only 2am. Wat a night!!! Somemore i got period & stomache... Super hungry and sleepy.

Last night was peaceful... Took all the 6am blood and set all the plugs ( ppl been lazying to set plugs and they tink tat i am super free at nightime to set plugs although i lik to set plugs and take blood but tat does nt mean tat i do for u then wat the point of teaching u at the first place)

I will do for my kakis but sory u are nt...so next time do urself... But my mouth only will knw how to say but my hands will be poking aunty or uncle's vein coz i don wan my patients to suffer under ur care!!!! DON WAN THEM TO DIE UNDER UR CARE COZ U ARE SCARY!!!

I will miss u Khad and the 3 months of relationship with u at a side... nvm we will meet again in Aug but in different stations though!

And lastly TJM... me and him only fren fren ah... don get the wrong idea? I like who...u don knw meh? although he is hopeless plus plus plus plus to infinity... Hai trying my best to clear him from my mind!!!

watching absolute boyfriend now.. the guy aka robort is super yandao... Wat if he become my robot bf i love him to death leh hee hee

2009-06-20T23:27:00.001+08:00

Love Quotes

The only condition for loving is to love with no conditions!
What's meant to be will always find a way!
The best and most beautiful things in life cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart!
Time goes by so fast, and people fly in and out of your life.You must never miss a chance to tell these people how much they mean to you!
They may forget what you said but they will never forget how you made them feel!
Be bold, be true, be wild, be you!
It's hard to tell your head to stop loving someone when your heart still does!
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before we meet the right one so when we do meet them we'll know how to be thankful!
When you think to yourself that person is so ugly or whatever you are telling God that He made a mistake!
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back!
It only takes a minute to have a crush, an hour to like someone, a day to love someone, and a lifetime to forget someone!
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fads away. Go for someone who can make you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright!
If you see someone who doesn't have a smile give them yours!
Love begins with a smile and ends with a tear!
Love can make you unrecognizable to even yourself!
Never forsake love because love will never forsake u!
The heart looks for love, the soul looks for a mate, together they find what they are looking for - true love!
The three most important words to hear or say are I love you!
Soul mates don't come a dime a dozen so when yours comes hold on to them!
Stay focused on the feelings of love, they come from the heart, and are true!
Listen to the heart, it knows the way!
Love is friendship set on fire!
Love can mend your life, but it can also break your heart!
Love is the fun in together, the sad in apart, the hope for tomorrow, and the joy in the heart!
If I could come back as anything it would be as one of your tears. How could I want more than to be concieved in your heart, born in your eye, lived on your cheek, and die on your lips?!?
You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving!
Love can touch just one time and last forever!
They say you only fall in love 1 time but everytime you smile at me I fall in love all over again!
If you love, someone put their name in a circle not a heart, because a heart can break but a circle lasts forever!

just receive this email from my fren. found it quite meaningful.

2009-06-09T03:30:00.002+08:00

I am waiting for my taiwan trip to come true in 1 mth's time. Counting the hours minutes & seconds tat is gg on. GG to fulfil with or without the approval. Gg to book the trip once again.

Doing my night nw... talking less than 5 sentances to my partner. trying to protect my patients from being killed by her.... Talking to michie abt the rotation and gossips abt the ppl tat we hated alot at work. Missing the old times of A station with Stella....
trying to get some sleep..... eating non stop.....

2009-06-06T01:37:00.002+08:00

My nights had ended with Busy patients, dramatic events( pt die & relatives kneeling down on the floor crying) & Blood cakes coming out from anus. I must admit ML is damn jinx. We only managed to sit down to order food @ 1am & only able to eat @ 3am. Tat is the most jinx nights of my perm Night.

H1N1 had finally came to Spore but not as serious as SARS. Need to maintain really strict hand hygiene to make one clean from virus. Handwashing till my fingers and palm are crack.

Went to do pedicure and manicure today. managed to sleep thru the whole process. Woke up with pretty nails and smooth nails too. HAppy. Wanted to do the wedding collection nail art but in the end skip it. Do it the next month. Now is super Poor Gal.

I nw then realised tat alot of sec sch frens are getting marry or already married. Wondering when will be my turn?

Waiting for the Right Guy @ the right time!!! And when will be the right time and where the hell is the Right guy???

I AM WAITING NOW NOW NOW NOW.
as claimed by my frens, i always like the wrong guys, either gays/sissy/arrogant guys
I really blind.

I really need a getaway right nw. Waiting for the upper ppl to nod their heads then i can go TAIWAN le.

Maybe i can try blind dates ah. Not a bad idea!

2009-05-29T19:03:00.002+08:00

Ss501
I'm Stupid lyrics

Because I'm so stupid and such a fool
My eyes don't see nobody but you
Even though
I know you love someone else
You could never know the pain that I felt
Oh oh oh

You probably never think of me at all
And I know we have no memories
But the one who really wants you is me
In the end
only my tears will fall

I stay, you walk away
I stand back, watching you day by day
You can't see that I'm so in love with you
Like the wind you just fly right through (ohhhhh)

There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch"I love you"
somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left crying for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

Love's like a river of tears
That will flow whenever you're not here
Even though your heart will never be mine
It's enough just seeing you smile

There are days when I see nothing but rain
There are days when I just feel so much pain
"I miss you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left wishing for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you
I'm waiting for you

Bye, bye, never say goodbye
Even though it's not me by your sideI need you,
I just can't say it but I want you
I cannot stop wishing for you

There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch"
I love you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left crying for you
There are days when I see nothing but rain
There are days when I just feel so much pain
"I miss you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left wishing for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

the song that i really in love with right nw

2009-05-23T16:24:00.004+08:00

OMG i so addicted to this show now... i so gg to buy the disc to watch at home over and over.

this version is much more better than the taiwan version even though i like jerry too. But i must say KOrean version is the best out of the 3 ( taiwan, japan & korean)

I like the song by ss501. Because i stupid ( as translates in eng)

been watching the show since last night and i cant stop it. While guarding restaurant city and watching boys over flowers.

IS another stress relieve points for me. to watch tv and dvds at home when having off day.

Hope tat i can go taiwan in july...Pray pray pray hard.

GG for degree in july too... been thinking wat am i gg to do ???? get another job instead of staying at ward 48...

Hmm...karen ask to wait for her for another 2 years when her bond finish. then decide to go work where?

i tink we will call a whole gang of ppl to leave 48. YY LZY Jm KAren Suhana Michie...and more

COZ WE ARE SICK OF THE STUPID WARD AND THE STUPID MANAGMENT

Oops... did i say it too loud?

Ha ha i heck care...u knw how to complain i don knw meh? i can even complain to MOM if i wan...i just cant be bother with u ... I like to scold mean i like to scold...working with useless & lazy ppl... don come to work even better coz don need to clear shit for u so tat u can go home and f* ur husband!!!!!!

Ok enough with the stupid bitch... there are alot of bitches in the ward... u name it i have it..

pRay that all the bitches will go to hell...

Enough of complaints.. i gg to watch MY LEE MIN HO... to relieve stress

2009-05-09T02:01:00.002+08:00

Went 2 changi airport today with jm...went there to chill out with books and lappy. Catching the Supernatural season 3 series ( nw is season 4). Went to chill out at TCC at T3. I reached the 1st, walked all the way to skytrain to t3 to wait jm. Airport is a nice place to chill. Watching ppl take plane and i stuck at Singapore working nites.

I should be at taiwan hotel sleeping nw lor...SWINE FLU ban us from gg taiwan... Complaining the whole day tat we cant go taiwan and we should doing this and that at this time of the day in front of jm. I tink she heard enough...ha ha till she say she will keep quiet.

Cant wait for my leave at july coz no matter wat they gg to say. I WILL STILL TAKE MY LEAVE TO GO OVERSEAS. ( to who ever hears this, hear me hard)

Sian... going back to my show... exciting part nw

2009-05-05T17:42:00.003+08:00

Swine Flu... The flu tat make ppl so ks. WE have to wear ppe the whole day and mask the whole day thruout the shift. Getting pimples, sore throat and backache is a evryday problem liao Since Swine Flu started.

Wondering when swine flu is gg away? So that i can claim back my leave and go overseas to relaz???

Had to post phone the whole taiwan trip coz of swine flu. CAnt go overseas unless willing to stay at home for 10 days using al or NPL. Jm cant coz she got no more al liao. had to wait till the coast is clear then go overseas.

when will that be ah? I super stress over working nwadays even though working night

listening to teardrops on my guitar... khad said the sng is for me...

2009-05-02T01:17:00.003+08:00

it been long long long time tat i blog on this blog... tinking of changing my address.. bUt long story.

Nt gg to taiwan liao bcuz of the flu.

been looking forward for this trip. Nw cant go liao super sian somemore leave is been suspended, nt knowing when can hav the leave back too.

alot of things is happening ard, really need a break from work otherwise i will habe a nervous breakdown, nt knwing wat i would do. Just really need a break or companion to tok to.

really miss the good old times at a side, even though is busy with only 4-5 ppl working but we had no complains of working together as we had good kakis working together. Been toking with michie today, tok abt asking her to come back to a side to pei wo. she said she missed her home. Yah missed home. Miss the good old days , having sister stella ard, even though someday she had her mood swings but indeed she is a nice sister which will help us, buy us drinks and food if we neber go for break as we are busy. Such a little act but we all will remember. Came to a side with her , fung chee, cherry & zainb. Nw is only me left there with karen suhana khad and marlianah. Soon it will be me & marlianah alone there. Die liao.. No kakis. The whole stations being belong to the blacks' world.

Really need a break from work. Tinkin of quitting and staying at home!

2009-01-20T21:28:00.001+08:00

How to get over a person?

How to fall in love again?

Someone! Can just teach me how?

Depression Mood Now...

Watching the Messengers onLine now!

DO NOT DISTURB

2008-11-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

沿海公路的出口

用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
慌茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走
用一段感情换一个朋友

每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不住回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不住回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不住回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

2008-11-25T17:09:00.002+08:00

Tonight will the 1st night shift that i am doing with my daughter ms tay jm. see Our so call luck how? whether is peaceful or jinx. as she claim that she is damn peaceful but i am the jinx one. See whether we are packing any one tonight anot?

Looking through the phones that i am interested, still cant decide wat i wan to buy?

Coming to dec le...end of the month...bonus month... YEAH!!! But i need to go to wedding...My cousin & Ms Sim Suhua.... gg to be broke...NVM..is once in a lifetime...Wondering when is mine? :P

i got a lot of things to buy in dec.. First to buy a new computer coz the old one kept dying on me & my sisters. Use the computer till wan to throw down to level 1. Secondly, save alot of money for my trips next year & lastly save money for my studies.. I wan to go take degree instead of adv dip. Don wan to spend my life packing ppl. Is a job that is beri depressing.

Spend everyday taking care of ppl tat will die in the end is a very depressing job.

When can i change my job?

2008-10-17T10:48:00.002+08:00

Been feeling bery emo this few days. Don knw wat is gg on with me? Work? Life?

Been dragging everyday to work. Go work is the same routine every day & everyday

don knw wat to do with my life?

2008-07-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Weee... I back from my trip le... Super happy & SAd cause i spend half of my bonus on the trip but nvm, felt happy after spending money. & i hav to get ready to go back to work next week le lor.

Day 1
Woke up ard 5 plus. Last min check thru luggage see whether got everything in the bags. Wait for Miss Pc to come fetch me then go meet Ms jm who reach airport like 5.30am. So early bird. Was raining in the mrng somemore & super cold!!! Reach airport ard 6.15am. Check in our luggage. My bag is 14kg without anything inside. Maybe my bag is made of iron therefore so heavy.
The flight flew @ 8.35 sharp. Miss Pc slept thru the whole journey, only wake up to eat & drink then went back to sleep again.
Reached TaoYuan AIrport @ 1 plus , then took the Express Bus to Taipei Main station then took Xiao Wang (TAxi in yellow) to our Hotel (Paradise Hotel). Check in into our rooms with 3 single beds. Hee..... Put our barang barangs out & went to look for food. Super hungry & tired on the first day. Ate TKK ( Ting Kuang Kuang) sth tat taste like KFC. Walked ard Ximending. Then cant tahan le Must go back Hotel to sleep. Buy food @ 7-11 to top up the fridge & the Plastic bag need to pay somemore.

Day 2
Miss Jm is the first one to wake up then me. But Pc only woke up after we 2 bath finish then she climb out of her bed. Ate our Cups noodle. Then set off to Sogo department store. I tink we reach too early. Sogo only open @ 11am. We were standing outside the store waiting for the store to open. Everyone is very guai to stand in the sun to wait for the store to open lor. & When the store open, the salesgals will stand outside the store to welcome the shoppers by bowing to us. I tink Singapore will not habe this type of courteous behaviors. The salesgal there are super nice even though u don wan to buy anything they will just welcome u with a great smile & thank u when u leaving. Jm bought a diesel top for Her bf while me & pc bought nike t shirts for our sisters. Then set off to find Jin Hua Cheng. Walked a long way but still cant find our way so finally we give up & went to Taipei 101 instead. Shopped ard the Branded Shop ( Gucci, LV, Coach) didnt find anything i like. Went to new york new york to makan. Then went back to Taipei 101 to visit the highest building.paid 400TWd to go up to the 89th floor to tour ard. Although is ex, but is a must to see in taipei since is the highest building in the world. Hee hee... we 3 are like Mountain Turtles! ha ha Kept taking pic ! After visited 101, took the train back to our hotel , rest for a while then went to shilin night market. Whoa, we already spent 1000plus on the goodies tat we bought at shilin. Hee hee Shop Shop Shop till 12am plus. Decided to go back to hotel to sleep & buy Smelly tofu & chicken chop back to makan. PC hated the smelly tofu, Me & Jm totally in love with It.

DAy 3
as usual, jm is the 1st to wake up, me 2nd & pc 3rd. Self explore to DIN TAI FUNG. but the queue is super long lor. Shit , Did not manage to makan Xiao Long Bao. Disappointed then Decide to go to wu fen pu to buy clothes. I spend 3k on the clothes tat i bought for my sister. Hee She is selling online. Took the train back to hotel to rest then went back to Shilin to continue shopping again as we not yet finished shopping the whole night market. Shopped till 2 am i tink . Took a cab back to hotel. Watched some stupid Ra movie which me & pc cursed @ the tv show.

DAY 4
Again the same Routine of waking up. Took the train to Beitou to go to the hot spring but forgot to bring Swim suits so cant go inside instead we went to Dan Shui to shop & buy goodies since is the last second day. Walked ard the pier, enjoying the scenery which singapore don hav. Bought alot of goodies for the families & friends. Took the train back to hotel. Super tired le. WEnt for SUkiyaki for dinner then walked ard XIMENDING. Managed to find a bag which i like alot & bought it. Bought three mainland plastic bags to pack our things. Kaoz we bought too much le lor. We came with 3 luggages & go home with 8 bags excluding hand carry. Shit .. got to pay the overweight fees till siao.

DAy 5
Finally i am the 1st one to wake up early as jm wans to go buy manjong for her mother. Went Carrefour to buy then went to buy mac for bREAkfast. the mac there are super cheap. Wake pc up since she is still sleeping. watched huan zhu ge ge while eating breakfast. We don knw tat we need to check out @ 12 & our flight is @ 6 lor. Shit no choice took a cab to airport where the ah pek count us cheap For 800 to taoyuan airport. Checkin our luggages. Lucky this time the lady said we don need to pay for the overweight. Hee wat a relief!!!
Waited @ burger king for the time to pass. Wat a long waiting time. Finally is time to leave TAiwan. I slept thru the whole journey . Hee hee....

We'll be back Next Year to visit TAipei again!!! Promise

2008-06-05T23:44:00.004+08:00

Yah i bought the 3 books of Stephanie Meyer. I now munchin on the last book "Eclipse"

& I cant wait for the movie to come out. It gg to show in USA on the 12.12.2008. So i have to wait till Next year then i got to see the movie...... OMG So long ..... Nvm this story worth the waiting.

The Cullen Family- Edward, esme, rosalie,emmett, alice. jasper & carlisle

Edward Cullen & Bella Swan ( The Vampire & the Human Lover)

The Cullen Brothers & Sisters

2008-04-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

Have u ever wonder wat have u achieve in ur whole life when u are abt to die?

A young, pretty gal had just left us with no pain & a smile on her face to where she is supposed to be pain free & illness-free.

She is gg to be a teacher in making, a sweet gal with a sweet voice. She had a loving mother & boyfriend who were always be with her when she need them.

My fren cried when she saw her lying motionless. She had neber cried when patient passed away. I told her i will too, cry even though we are used to handling death.

She had gone to a place where she found peace.

REST In Peace, Xin Yu

2008-04-01T18:19:00.001+08:00

2008-04-01T18:06:00.001+08:00

Colbie Caillat-Realise

Take time to realize

That I am on your side

Didn't I, didn't I tell you

Take time to realize

That your warmth is

Crashing down on in

But I can't spell it out for you

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realizeWhat I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize

Oh oh, I'm on your side

Didn't I, didn't I tell you

Take time to realize

This all could pass you by

Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realize

What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, but

It's not the same

No it's never the same

If you don't feel it too

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way

It could be the same for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realizeWhat I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

Just realize

What I just realized

If you just realize

What I just realized

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh

ooh ooh ooh ooh

Missed out on each other now

Missed out on each other now-ow-ow-ow

Realize, realize, realize, realize, realize

Ohhh oh

2008-02-02T16:31:00.000+08:00

世界太罗嗦能不能够放空失踪

是谁在我的背后说什么

好像又没说

一颗心总被你悬在半空中难受

可是你又迟迟不说爱我

没有你

我发现自已无法感动

是否当身边的人都变成观众

我该做作

Oh you are the sunshine in my life

Don't really know

需要你的时候

感受你的温柔

能不能勇敢说爱

yeah...

关掉你的眼睛你的鼻和口

Say no

如果你也能放下所有

请你点点头

我的心只为你一个人跳动

心痛

可你还能为我改变什么

没有你我发现自已

无法感动是否

当身边的人都变成观众

我该做作

Oh you are the sunshine in my life

Don't really know

需要你的时候感受你的温柔

能不能勇敢说爱 yeah...

也许到最后

你还是要走

没有你

我发现自已无法感动

是否当身边的人都变成观众

我该做作

Oh you are the sunshine in my life

Don't really know

需要你的时候

感受你的温柔

能不能勇敢说爱

2008-01-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

I just wanna say hello to you

But you’re not lookin’ my way

Like you trying to act cool

I think I lost my mind

Back there and then

Oh how I let my feelings go

You see, I know it’s just a crush

And a crush won’t ever last long

No one’s forcing it, boy

So you I’ll put aside

Thought friends we would be

Oh, boy…

Sadly you took my smile away

Every time you look my way

It fades away

I think it’s best it stays this way

Every time you look my way

Yeah, it fades away

You just wanna say hello to me

Now the table’s turned

I’m not lookin’ your way

Don’t get it wrong

Oh, it’s twisted up

Alright let’s make this story short

You see, I know it’s just a crush

And a crush won’t ever last long

No one’s forcing it, boy

So you I’ll put aside

Thought friends we would be

Oh, boy…

Whao… Why did it have to go down this way?

I’ll admit I feel you when you are near

Maybe baby we got it all wrong

2008-01-02T18:22:00.000+08:00

I tink i look super funny in GREEN!!

Ytd was my 1st day wearing SGH Uniform. Everyone said i am the new staff in the ward & my new name TAN PEI PEI.

I probably not used to wearing green as i had wore white uniform for the past 2 & dun knw how many mth.

Wat To do ? I wan to go study!!!! STUDY plus Study!!! CAn?????

On 29-12-2007. Michelle, karen. kong & Me went to Bernard's wake. Echo seems to be happy or should i say relieve? She seems cheerful while talking to us. Maybe she has release her burden of taking care of her husband while he was in hospital.

We chit chat for a while & we said our good bye to Echo & Bernard.

Good Bye & Rest In Peace

2007-12-29T12:48:00.000+08:00

I gg to one of my fav patients' Funeral Later on.

Neber did i shed a tear during My working days.

For him. I did.

I am the one who does the admission for him & i am the one who gave the Death Cert to the wife.

Can u imagine the wife & the whole family were thanking you for taking care of him while they were griefing & crying to vent out?

I really really want to cry out loud but i have to control coz i cant show feeling out when i am working.

I had to go to the toilet & slowly regained.

But i still cant forgot the faces of the wife & the auntie thanking us who accompanied him to his last days.

& thanked the Drs whose make him go in comfortable stage instead of go in pain.

We see him as a good & nice patient who always buy food for us when he knew tat we neber go for break & we are busy to eat.

He is always my dearest Shuai Ge.

Rest In peace!!!

2007-12-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

Is gg to be the year end le. Wat hav i done for the whole year?
I tink i had done nth in the end.

HOW???

2007-12-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

pauline's 24th Birthday

2007-12-01T17:06:00.000+08:00

2007-12-01T01:50:00.001+08:00

2007-12-01T01:44:00.001+08:00

My Fav Song OF the year

2007-12-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

2007-11-24T00:44:00.001+08:00

2007-11-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

2007-11-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

What Pei Jie Means

P is for Pleasant
E is for Enjoyable
I is for Industrious
J is for Joyful
I is for Insane
E is for Enjoyable

What Does Your Name Mean?

2007-10-25T00:43:00.000+08:00

I just finished my 3 nights with my kaki, karen Lim HP. & guessed wat we pack 3 for our 3 nights coz we ate baos after our first night for breakfast. Shitty. We packed 1 each for our side, the torture part is tat i am helping her with her R7 , my patient stopped breathing when i went in.
I was totally shocked coz i just done suctioning for the uncle before i went in to help her. My poor junior had to put 3 leads for the uncle & she aso dun know how to coz she aso very shocked tat the uncle died.
Luckily my central staff went to help her with the leads & she helped me to call the family to come down. hai... totally buay tahan the whole night then after tat @ 5 am the R7 passed away aso. Really shitty for the 2nd night. My junior even forbidden me to eat bao the next night. & this showed tat we are not supposed to eat bao before or after work le.

3rd night. when karen went to check patient with the night NM. They stood outside the room to see whether patient is breathing anot. SHit the patient stopped breathing in front of them. Totally shit. Even The Night NM said he cant do night with me coz everytime when we 2 work on the same night, he sure & confirm need to come up to check body one. SHit he aso know.
Every one forbidden me to go touch their dying patients ha ha coz they sure need to pack. Ha ha

In conculsion. NOT TO EAT BAOS BEFORE WORK OR AFTER WORK.

Ha ha

2007-10-12T23:57:00.001+08:00

OK i Found the translation of the Jap Song. Here goes:

It's not your fault those hands are cold

Holding onto the hurts from the past

Afraid to love someone

Turning your back against the true meaning of the story

Like ice, the heart that is hugged

Slowly melts

To be loved by someone or whoever

It makes life shine like this

If it was me

I would make your heart once again

Warm with eternal tenderness

Fate's Play

Even if it makes your heart hurt

At the end of the tear

A stream of light

Comes down from the dark

We can know it

We can feel the strong painful feeling

A person's warmth

Sadness & loneliness that everyone has

Looking for the place to recover

Yes for you that place is here

Don't worry don't hesitate anymore

I will protect you

Because it is a beautiful love as it is sad

This beatiful time as it is ephemeral

To be loved by someone or whoever

It makes life shine like this

If it was me

I would make your heart once again

Warm with eternal tenderness

2007-09-26T08:53:00.000+08:00

i doing night again with YY!!!! Hope everything will be peaceful & call bells will not sound like Disco Or i will Jump Up & Down liao le.
Ok gg back to sleep after downloading songs to IPOD. then later gg back to ward for meeting.
Then gg to buy milk shake for missy yy for tonight!!!
Nites

2007-09-24T19:11:00.000+08:00

I found the ultimate break up song:

I gotta say what's in my mind

Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way

Whenever we try,
somehow the plan is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..

I've go to move on
and be who I am
I just don't belong here

I hope you understand
We might find our place
in this world someday

But at least for now
I gotta go my own away
Don't wanna leave it all behind

But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard
to watch it all slowly fade away

I'm leaving today
'cause I've gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..

I've got to move on
and be who I am I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away

BOY
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

GIRL
What about trust?

BOY
you know I never wanted to trust you

GIRL
and what about me?

BOY
What am I supposed to do?

GIRL
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

BOY
I'll miss you

GIRL
so I've got to move on and be who I am

BOY
Why do you have to go?

GIRL
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

BOY
I'm trying to understand

GIRL
We might find our place
in this world someday
but at least for now

BOY
I want you to stay

GIRL
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

BOY
What about us?

GIRL
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

BOY
I'm trying to understand

GIRL
We might find our place in this world
someday but at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

2007-08-23T17:05:00.000+08:00

So nice MIchelle JIe they all are gg night safari while i will be slogging @work tom.

I aso wan to go night safari!!!!

But too bad i working mrng tom so cant go, HAve to find another time to go liao le.

Workplace is like hell. Everyday so many things to do. Can die le. Drop dead @ workplace.

2007-08-13T14:57:00.000+08:00

Changi airport

What we bought??

How Bangkok like?

How the room look like??

Barang that we bought

2007-08-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

In love again

When you smile my life becomes a ray of light

Sing me a lullaby to sleep at midnight

I' ll be hypnotized when looked into your eyes

Turn Off the room light

Let's spend the night

Take me to far away

Away to your secret place

Take my tears my fears

Take all the pain for which

I'll repay someday with a kiss &

Say can't believe tat I'm in love in Love again

When the stars don't shine

And when the birds don't fly

And when the flowers cry

And when the rain runs dry

When the violets is red

When the rose turn blue

Baby I'll still in love with you

Take me to far away

Take my tears my fears

Take all the pain for which

I'll repay someday with a kiss &

Say can't believe that I'm in love in love again

2007-08-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

Singapore Zoo Outing For Nurses ONLY!!!

2007-08-05T15:49:00.000+08:00

Yeah i am back from My bangkok trip

Day 1

Reached Hotel @ 2 plus , checked in plus unpacking bag. Drag till 4 plus then went siam square to do nails. Hee Vain Gals. Then went MBK centre for dinner then went shop shop for a while then bought goodies for family. We bought donuts for supper at the hotel. Tok A tu tu back to hotel & we had a scare of our life when the guy took us to back alley when is very dark. Shit... Nearly jumped out of the tutu to run for help. But lucky he managed to find the way back to the hotel.

Day 2

Woke up @ 8(spore time), Went for breakfast @ the hotel. Went to MBK centre to shop. Bought alot of things till we drop dead. Went to Tea break at the coffee shop. Then continued to shop till 5 then took the MRT back to hotel. Rest for a while then went the local Chinese restaurant for dinner. Tok a cab to Sum Lum Night market to shop. Bought alot of clothes for my sisters & for myself too. Bought a pair of shoes for me too. then shop till very tired till we took a cab back hotel.

Day 3

Woke up @ 8 again. Went for breakfast again @ the hotel. PAcked our luggage & the luggage felt so heavy than wat we took from spore. Ha ha Really shopped a lot . Took a cab to the airport & check in time is 1455 & we reached very early so we went to the sky loft to have cake & pizza. Checked in le then went to the local book shop when i bought "Angels & demons" by Dan Brown which is cheaper than in spore. then we went duty free shop to shop for gifts for frens. & i bought 3 elephants for mY sisters & PUI PUI lim.

REached SPore @ 8pm. Went Duty Free to buy perfume & i spent 500plus on them. The salesgal even gave me a luggage bag from hugo boss free. Ha ha a bargain. Hee But when i want to check out, i nearly cant come out from changi airport coz they said the pic from my passport does not look like me. Shit. Ok that pic i took before i went for poly ok. Shit. Lucky the guy was nice enough to let me off ha ha. Only ask me to change the pic when i got back. coz it does not look like me shit. Ok ok i grew older le. SHitty

Totally drop dead when i got home. Hee
Ok will upload pics when i upload finish for Multipy

2007-07-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble
when you speak
or see you walk
with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what...

2007-07-20T01:41:00.000+08:00

NICE?

This is the hotel room that i gg to stay when i gg to thailand.

Now counting down to The days tat i gg for my holidays

2007-07-02T15:14:00.000+08:00

Girl Facts:
When you catch a girl
glancing at you,
she wants you to look
back and smile

When a girl bumps into your arm
while walking with you
she wants
you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through
her mind

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply

When a girl looks at you with eyes
full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be
around

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after
a few seconds,
she is not at all fine

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing
games

When a girl lays her head on your
chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers
forever

When a girl says she can't live
without you,
she has made up her mind that you are
her future

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more
than that

When a girl is mean to you after a
break-up
she wants you back, but shes
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever

Guy Facts:

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a
few minutes
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do

When your laying your head on a guy's
chest,
he has the world

When a guy calls/texts/comments you
everyday,
he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves
you,
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without
you,
he's with you til your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

2007-06-27T00:27:00.000+08:00

Yeah bonus come liao le.

ha ha & i already almost half of the bonus le

i have finally saw the reborn of my new hair. Finally after 1 1/2 years of perming hair, i finally got up the courage to straighten my hair le. Yes!!!!

i spend alot this few mths must really save up le... coz i gg to thailand during my next annual leave. can see the hotel rooms. is damn nice.

Finally got to buy my long lost sister. Gucci wallet!!!
i describe it as my long lost sister coz i been dreaming of getting one very very long le. & i got my mind on the long lost brother too Ha ha... 750 bucks gucci bag.

Hopefully my dream guy will get to see this then he will buy for mi. Plz... ha ha fat hope i tink. hee

tom is jci mock audit. shit i not yet learn a single things & i gg to work in the noon.

can dun ask me questions.

2007-06-21T17:35:00.000+08:00

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content.Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while.But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

2007-06-21T17:25:00.001+08:00

Your Birthdate: January 12

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone.Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them.Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

2007-06-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh... So boring at home. Having headaches & backaches....

Staring @ the computer but nth to do.

OPen itunes & let the music play the whole day.

Waiting waiting waiting.......

2007-05-17T15:41:00.000+08:00

How Do i spend my leave right?

Staying @ House & rot- Tat the first thing to do

GO shopping & spend my $$ on it

Surfing the net & playing online games & chit chatting on msn loh

bought all kinds of things to eat & grew fatter. Ha ha ha ha

this one is one of my 'winning prize' from GG>5 Hee hee

2007-05-15T04:48:00.000+08:00

Last week of my leave. PLanning wat to do next at the moment @ 5 am in d mrng coz i cant get to sleep.

Went to watch 28 weeks later, Very interesting show which had people gg ard Britain biting people & infected people with some kind of virus. But people be sure to go watch this movie with a empty stomach, coz the whole movie is damn bloody lo. We ate sushi before catching the show more worse. I can felt my stomach turning inside out after the show lo. Shit!!!

Next show tat i want to watch is pirates of the carribean staring Johnny Deep ( the yandao ), Chow yan fatt ( my fav actor) & Orlando bloom ( The yandaoest) Haha... Any kaki wan to watch.

Sad to hear to Tat Nurnila had passed away on last sat. The poor 5 kids of hers cant celebrate Mothers' day this. BUt i am sure tat they knew tat they had a mother tat had been fighting for her life for them. Hai... Tat life wat to do ?

2007-05-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

I offically on leave starting from last sat after my night shift. I tink i got nth to do during this 2 weeks coz i did not plan for anything for this leave. I tink i will rot @home & rot to death. Remember to come to my So called funeral.

Can i say tat i really miss the work @my workplace? Although at work, i dying to be on leave. But when i started having my leave, i start to miss the action-pack work load. HAHA... laugh for u can. Coz the ward is really action packed with lots & lots of work load.
Diaper charts, charge form books, special assignments, PR Work & lot of work that u cant imagine wat nurses do in hospitals setting? Shitty things. Only wasting pen ink...

Next time. Nurses' day can give free pens!!!

watever... dun miss work... coz i make myself enjoy this 14 days off from work...
with or without work... i enjoy my leave.

2007-03-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

Talking about disappointment.

i experienced 1 of the biggest disappointment in my life for now.

SOB SOB.

Forget about it. I told to myself now.

2007-02-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

HAppy Valentine day to all my frens....

I doing night shift on v day can u believe it? & i scolded one patient ytd night .... Shit man... Nurses not ur maid leh ask me to massage ur bloody damn legs for wat... later u high start to touch here & there ah... bloody shit asshole u are...

Scolded him that i am not free & i got to handle 1 dead ppl on my list ... i got no free time to massage.. U tink i very free isit? Wait long long aso dun have... or u can pay to go to geylang lorong watever for massage.... fucker u idiot.

i clean his damn ass like thousand times for him ytd night... kept calling the call bell like no one business... wat the hell. A ghost inside the room tat u kept puking from ur ass ah. shit man. damn fucker patient u are. SO wat u are paying class... u still owe the hospital... thousands of dollar & it increases everyday... so fuck off bloody shit u .... SO dun act act like u are paying for services.. sorry fucker... u not ceo of the hospital .... U wan good services go to bulid a hospital of ur own...

But anywhere u are dying from cancer so i won care wat u want... TAke it or leave it this is the choice. Go to hell u bloody touchy old man...

2007-02-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

I shouldn’t love you
But I want to
I just can’t turn away
I shouldn’t see you
But I can’t move
I can’t look away

I shouldn’t love you
But I want to
I just can’t turn away
I shouldn’t see you
But I can’t move
I can’t look away

And I don’t know
How to be fine
when I’m not
Cuz I don’t know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling is taking control
Love me and
I can’t help it
I won’t see around
I can’t let them with now
Thought you should know
I try my best to let go of you
But I don’t want to
I just gonna say it all
before I go
Just so you know

It’s getting hard
to be around you
Cuz so much
I can’t say
Do you want me to have the feeling
And look the other way
And I don’t know

How to be fine when I’m not
Cuz I don’t know
How to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling is taking control

Love me and
I can’t help it
I won’t see around
I can’t let them with now

2007-02-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

OMG. Are nurses ur mother or lover?

Can nurses wear spacesuits to work plz?

Coz nurses get touched all over by those who are dirty minded.

maybe they are uintentionly, maybe they are sick. but can they just keep their hands where they are supposed to put at.

NUrses are not ur maids ok. We are professional (so called). we are there to nurse u back to ur healthy bodies not there for u to anyhow touch butts, waist & breasts.

Student nurses are aso professional. SO dun be so called funny at ur language and ur HANDS..

If i cant tolerate anymore, i will find a chopper to chop off ur blooody, idiot f hands then u will......

I dun dare to say out wat i do with ur hands. But u will get it from me if u do it once again. Bloody shit u !!!!!!!!

2007-02-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

Can humans survive without love?? Can U tell me tat?

I soo sick & tired of waiting, waiting & waiting. Waiting for an ending that will never happen

Shit man. I really have no words or feeling to express anymore.

Therefore, i should stop wating no more.

2007-02-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

2007-01-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

I really cant make it le. Coz i went to do the most stupid thing in my life. OMG!!!

Really shit.

2007-01-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

Me & Pauline @ TCC

Me & Lizhen

@ Citylink

@ Royce Chocolate

My Birthday cake

2007-01-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

I like super long time neber update my blog . decided to blog tonight @ 0118 coz today is my bday .

Happy birthday to me. & i getting older le. Super ke lian

i bought myself a new handphone, my frens bought me cute stuffs, miss tan give a sweater from u2 which she bought one for herself too.

but too bad i dun really can enjoy coz i broke.

Maybe for my bday wish that i can wish tat wentworth miller will be my boyfriend then i will be very happy to stare @ his face everyday.

When i stress, just look @ his botak head, i will be very happy le. then look @ his tatooes, i will drool all over him!!

Listen to his sexy, low voice, i will sleep soundly everynight even though i am tired.

But my sister just told me tat he is gay. OMG. Really??? I must go & do mt researche regarding this matter.

OMG totally spoilt my mood le.

OK now for my bday wishes:

1) Wishes tat my whole family will be healthy & happy as always
2) wishes tat xiao wei aka apple aka xiao bao bei grow up healthy & happy little gal
3) wishes tat my frens will be happy as always.
4) wishes tat i will find a bf as soon as possible otherwise my frens will kept asking
5) hope tat i can still survive in tat ward as far as i can go
6) hope wentworth miller will not be gay otherwise i will be heartbroken le!!!!

Will take pics then i will upload if i have!!

2006-12-24T18:22:00.000+08:00

Long time neber log in to blog le coz everyday seem a heavy working day to me.

tonight i working night shift again. extra $$$ hee.... then can buy things le.
tinking whether to change hp or buy other things. tinking whether to continue perming my hair ant?

any suggestion but dun ask me to cut botak or short hair ah ?

Merry christmas to me & my frens outside.

2006-11-18T17:19:00.000+08:00

the 3 nurses that were doing night

This is the station that i am working

See how serious we are working

this is wat we do during night ...
eating & writing report

2006-10-04T16:42:00.000+08:00

wat do i have to do to make u awake?

can kindly tell me wat to do can?

i really have no idea wat do i have to do ?

everyday been trying hard enough.

dun make my life miserable can?

2006-09-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

working now really kills alot of cells~~~ workplace is like hell... everyday work non stop.

where got time to enjoy???

Except today coz is my rest day & my mama bday!!!

happy bday to mama!~~~

2006-07-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

There is 1 new member in the family. That is my little cousin hee...she is damn so cute & cuddly.

See for urself:

2006-07-14T17:23:00.000+08:00

here some pics

2006-06-08T09:46:00.000+08:00

TRUE BY RYAN CABRERA

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move
till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think
I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the anwsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life
I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk
into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true

Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life
to cross this line
To the only thing
thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything
to be with you
All my life
I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill
be on my way to you
The way thats true
I've waited all my life
to cross this line

To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life
I've waited

This is true

2006-05-06T17:14:00.000+08:00

This is wat we do when we are bored. Taking pics on bus. REally bo liao.

Gg out on my sleepin day. REally sleepy.... can see from my face. GG out after my 3 nights.

Wat can i say?? I tink i am DeaTh itself.....

Bcoz i pack dead ppl on my 1st & 2nd night. Omg...... Busy like siao nu ren!!!

Hai...nvm At least they are gone frm suffering from singapore!!!

tinkin wat to wear for my poly mate's weddin.... tinkin tink tink !!!

THE GREAT SINGAPORE SALE IS HERE..at the end of may.... ok my turn to shop!!!

really lazzy to blog.... sleepy head!!!

2006-04-06T15:35:00.000+08:00

Been a long long time since i updated already. REally nth to update coz i been busy everyday working & working & working. Work my butt out!!!! & stuffing anything that i can see into my mouth. But i mean those that is edible lah!! & i tink i gain some wt liao le... so now time to diet liao le!!!

Ohh wat can i say!!! Tat is a gal thing lah!!!

Shopping really relieve stress coz i bought tops & bottom from my Fav shop Mango!!!

No more vcds for me to watch liao le...But i got some DVDS not yet finish leh...but hee...i lazy to watch liao le....

Hai stuck @ home on my rest day... really rotting liao le!!!

2006-03-12T17:27:00.000+08:00

Yippy!!! I finally got back my phone!!! Tink i had been returning my hp for repair for 6th time!!! & i really got back a normal phone to use liao le@@@@

Went to parkway for like the dun knw how many times liao le?? even the gal working @ nokia centre knw me liao le. but wat the hell?? coz they neber really repair my phone for me, kept having the same problem. Tink i gg to change my hp when the contract ended bah. Target phone is Nokia N70!!!!

Went walking ard parkway for the last time coz i starting work tom. somemore mrng shift then night shift!!! Wah.Wah!!! & i bought again "He Jun Xiang" dvd again!!! haha.... ling wan?? English Title is Express boy...sth chinese is er nan sth sth sth!!! Dun really how to say in chinese@@@

Starting to anticipate wat is the show abt??? Wat the hell??? i only wan to watch HE JUN XIANG only!!!

My target husband type can?? haha...but SPORE where got tis kind of guy walking ard??

so i must continue dreaming of my dream husband!!!

2006-03-10T14:59:00.000+08:00

2006-03-09T17:10:00.000+08:00

omg....hee...i so obessed with this show... watched it everyday since i had my leave....hee...

coz i very free mah...so nth to do so get all my disc & watched it everyday....

really spend alot of money already...coz must rest at home & watch this show... & listened to the song ai mei.... hee

2006-03-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

kaoz....my handphone had spoilt like the 3rd time liao le.... today i even sent back to nokia care centre....... for the 3rd time~~~~~

bad luck~~~~

2006-02-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

Wat can I say??

SHOPPING really made my day!!!! HAHA :)

I'm really happy today!!!

Coz I bought alot of CLOTHES to replenish my wardrobe@@@@@ MNG & ESPIRT

HAHA....somemore with my younger sister@@@ she aso bought alot lo....

& 1 more thing, my leave is coming ....hahah....really made my day coz i can escape from the ward for 1 week@@@

2006-02-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

this is how i celebrate my v day with pauline.@@@@ Doing our eyebrows, gg shopping, gg tcc to makan pasta & drank our fav kopi...mochavilla@@@@ we vent our stress @ our food@@@ haha...ok we saw alot of couples but wat the hell?? v day not only just for couples is aso for frens & families@@@

my damn idiot nokia 7610 is spolit like 2 times already. i am using Mummy's phone now!!!!
really dun knw what wrong with my phone, it kept switchin on & off by itself!!! hai.... is it time to change phone now????

but just change like 6 mths only@@@ warrantly still valid @@@ haha... anyone interested???

hee....my leave is coming soon... but tink i will stay @ spore tis time...next leave time then i will go thailand for sure...ok TAN QIUYAN!!! IDIOT!!!!

2006-01-31T14:21:00.000+08:00

COUSINS!!!!

MY FAMILY
COUSINS
THE GALS IN THE FAMILY

cousinS!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRENS!!!!!

really had a great time coz i am off for 3 days from new year eve till chu er!!!! yah!!!! but need to work night today but it ok coz i really had fun celebrating new year & eating alot of junk food liao le!!!! BUT WHO CARES???

really had fun but my grandma is still in AMK hospital,so the whole bunch went there to celebrate with her lo@@@@

ok ok enough of crap!!!

2006-01-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

How much i misses my bunnies frens & my straight hair???

but i do luv my curls!!!! Haha

i realise that i'm writing a boring entry coz i gt nth better to do mah....read finish FEMALE, SEVENTEEN & CLEO

got alot to buy from everywhere, got to do my nails before CNY. A new pants to go along with my MNG top. A new bag to go along too@@@

REally got to buy alot...but now i got no spare cash to buy@@@@ SobSOb

2006-01-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

Taken @ cineleisure kbox toilet...we all nth better to do ah@@@

Thanks for all my frens for wishing me happy birthday

especially ling@@@@ hee@@@ thank for putting my name BIG BIG @ ur blog!!!

didn't really celebrate this yr jus only went to kbox to sing song song!!!!

2005-12-31T22:42:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to believe tat i am really leading a boring life. coz now many ppl are enjoying themselves @ parties & counting down but here i am sittin here, surfing the net and playin games.

HEE....coz i really lazy to go & do sth interesting. Hee.... ppl got public holidays tom & monday...
but i have to work tom somemore night shift....hai....really boring life ah....

But anyway!!!!!!

happy new year to all my frens@@@@@

2005-12-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

sorry neber really got time to update my blog due to some problem in family. Have to work & manage timing too.... so really busy to write wat gg on too~~~ Today is xmas 's eve...no mood to go anywhere too... aso have to work...so no time too.... REceived alot of chocolates this time round...somemore my ward have 6 boxes of rocher to open to...& we got 2 log cakes to eat too....

xmas wish:::: wish that my grandma will get well soon.... that all@@@

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY FRENS!!!!

2005-12-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

2005-12-10T20:06:00.000+08:00

Heard this song frm the SHE serial. luv it @@@

Name : 再一次拥有

Lyrics: 我想念去年的冬天下着雪的那一夜你给的温柔紧握的双手温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有在你离开以后带走了笑容只留下寂寞忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑只能闭上双眼去感觉没有我的夜谁在你身边

代替了那个从前能不能再听一次你说爱我回到还在你怀里的时候

能不能让我再一次拥有曾属于我的温柔能不能让我再一次拥有曾属于我的温柔

been sick for 2 days liao le...having sore throat & slight fever. & with a sore teeth ache. went to see dr near from my place said that my mouth had no place for my wisdom teeth to grow. Ask me to go see dentist.... hee .... will go to sgh dentist coz got rebate mah....really cheapskate leh me!~!! but wat to do ??? no money now !!! really stay at home on fri....sleepin thru the day after eating medication....really no voice to tok on phone either....

today went out with my younger sister.... she went to suntec dorthy berkins to buy her khakis pants. While i shop ard the shop but bought nth. Went to mango to see any pants to go along with my top that i bought from mango too.... nth in the end that i bought ......

thinking whether to buy the levi princess cut jeans??? thinkin thinking thinkin......Thinking really hard!!!!!

2005-12-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

looking very blur.... somemore with a very red sore right eye

looking happily @ my fren

ytd went out with miss tan to buy her levi jeans. then went to city hall asian kitchen to makan!!! i somemore went out with my very red eye coz i just finish on fri m0rning. really tired mah. somemore i forgot i have to go out with ling they all to boat quay... sorry sorry!!

Bought nth exacly. except some chocolates frm millenia walk ( did i spell it correct) then bought j lo parfum mini from sa sa...try out the smell then buy the big one@@@

been watching many many dvd @ hm....watched harry potter 3, qi jian, scary movie 1 &2, chicken little....then now planning to conquer shen hua, saw 2, just like heaven. & 2 of andy lau movies!!! hee...really nth better to do ah@@@ coz i have 4 days off as i worked 9 days in exchange of the 4 days off.... & 4 of the bunnys are plannin to go kl or jb to shop as bonus is comin on the 17th@@@ ahahahahah@@@@ so good@@@ gg to be rich again

2005-11-29T18:30:00.000+08:00

whoa still got so many days to go before i got my off day for 3 days.

hmm see wat i have done this fews days. ytd went out with my working frens yanti, lilymay & shobana. went to asian kitchen to makan for dinner. hee...nice foods aso. lily was asking whether can ask to add honey in the chinese tea. all of us laughed aloud. After dinner, went to suntec starbucks to drink kopi & gossip ah !!! Tht is our all time fav past time!!! But times flew, they had to go back to work as they are nite shift so i went home!!!

went parkway with my sister, bought a mango top for new year. & Most impt is red (my mum's fav color) haha...... AFter that bought harry potter part 3 dvd. coz i really forgot i ever watched the movie@@@@ Thinking really hard man!!!!

Now waiting for my mom to cook for me to makan as i on night today.

HAppy Birthd@y To Lee WEnQI!!!!

SO GALS are we meeting tis week fri???

My bonus is coming....coming down now!!!

2005-11-22T14:47:00.000+08:00

Yeah Finally Watched the MOvie with my Younger Sister ytd @ Toa Payoh. Dun ask me why i go to that place bcoz i dun wan to wait very long 4 tickets. coz they always sold out @ city areas. I even woke up early to go buy tickets lah!!!

The Movie is damn nice & Lucky i neber bring along My 2nd sister with us otherwise she would be asking alot of question coz she neber catch the 1st 3 movies & she would asking " who is the man ah??" Later if we answer her throughout the movie. I tink we would be kick out of the cinema.

Harry is still so cute than ever. Ron is still so silly & Hermonie become more pretty as she grow up ah@@@ The 'sercet' romance between Hermonie & Ron is getting there. So funny when seeing them quarrel.

Fighting scenes was so intensed. Pictures is as beautiful. Really good movie to watch. Dun knw y so many ppl say not nice. Maybe i neber read the book so i tink is nice. Much better than Other 3.

The evil Guy "U know who" "not to mention the name" Is back but without a nose. Coz the nose is as flat as the face.

Rating For this Movie:: 5 stars

2005-11-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

Got this quiz frM Ling's blog:

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Positive trait: Have a lot of empathy for others.

Negative trait: Hard on yourself.

Color: Crimson

Emotion: Self-hate

Animal: Horse

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2005-11-18T18:38:00.000+08:00

爱笑的眼睛

如果不是那镜子不像你不藏秘密我还不肯相信

没有你我的笑更美丽那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心

我嘟的一声切的比你说分手彻底

泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去

这爱的城市虽然拥挤如果真的遇见你你不必讶异

我的笑她无法代替离开你我才发现自己

那爱笑的眼睛流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨

淋湿的昨天删去(忘记)

离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情我一定让自己让自己决定

泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去

这爱的城市虽然拥挤如果真的遇见你

你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替

离开你我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛流了泪

当一个人看旧电影是我不小心而已

离开你我才找回我自己那爱笑的眼睛再

见到你我一定让自己让自己坚定

离开你我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛流过泪

像躲不过的暴风雨淋湿的昨天忘记

离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛

再见爱情我一定让自己让自己坚定

再见到你我一定让自己假装很坚定

2005-11-18T14:42:00.000+08:00

Went to malaysia ytd with My family. saw these cute doggys, uncontrolable just wanted to take their pics & post Coz they super Cute cUte....... while eating my bao, this cute little white puppy just sit right down me & waiting for me to feed it. Ok gave skin to it. IT would put its paws on ur feet & look at u ....Poor thing....wanted to bring it back 2 Spore.... hee...smuggle it back. My 2nd sister will be thrill to see it !!!! Hee.....

Yeah!!! Harry Potter IS back !! Yeah yeah@@@@ Want to watch liao!!!! With My sister!!! Next Monday!!!

2005-11-11T18:45:00.000+08:00

Been Changing template the whole noon, now settled with this one... maybe will change to a new one later on.

been very frustated with ward workload, & finally i had 4 off days which i will surely & must rest & enjoy myself@@@

tell u guys one toopid thing that i ever heard

i was inside the Mo's room calling hp of The mo, reporting to her my patient's condition & one of d consultants was sitting there, reading thru case files or watever he doing. Suddenly he turned to me & asked:

Dr: " y are u in tis uniform?? are u working in tis ward??""

me: " yah i am working in tis ward." But i was tinking to myself : halo i been working in the ward for almost a year liao le..... Wat u are trying to do ?? Nth better to ask izit?? Nth better to do isit?? Go & see ur patients & stopped bugging the Nurses... But i cant say in font of him. Just say behind his back lah.

OK now back to tom event schedule, Dun knw wat to do tom??

2005-11-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

Yeah....FInally mY 4 days off is here liao le!!! Yeah!!! But Die lah...No $$ to spend aso!!! Hai@@@@

Above Pic is taken today @ StarBucks @ Suntec... 3 of us were morning shift today & we decided to go out coz very stress tis few weeks @ ward With So many F patients @ psycho Patients too.... LAughed our heads out while making fun @ Our ward Dr!!! Secrets lah...Cant tell!!! Coz they will kill us if they knew it@@@

Not yet plan wher to Go this few days... Hav to think abt it tonight!!!

Jay's Newest album is damn nice !!! Played it when i was on my way to work!! the Songs were so poetic!!! & MeaningFul too@@@ My fav song is 枫..... Dun Knw Y But Find it meaningful!!!

"乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影我聆听沉积已久的心情星星透明就像美丽的风景走在回忆里才看的清被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我我用力牵起没温度的双手过往温柔已经被时间上锁只剩挥散不去的难过缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天金黄的到天边被风掠过像你的容颜我把爱烧成了落叶却换不回熟悉的那张脸缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前爱你穿越时间两行泪只求我的眼泪让爱散透了地面我要的只是你在我身边被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我我用力牵起没温度的双手过往温柔已经被时间上锁只剩挥散不去的难过再想要剪开一夜风雨随着北风凋零我轻轻摇曳风铃想唤醒被遗弃的爱情雪花已铺满了地谁把窗外枫叶已经沉迷缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天金黄的到天边被风掠过像你的容颜我把爱烧成了落叶就唤不回熟悉的那张脸缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前爱你穿越时间两行泪只求我的眼泪让爱散透了地面我要的只是你在我身边 "

So Damn MeanIng Ful!!! Feel Like CryiNg now le!!!

2005-10-27T16:49:00.000+08:00

Firstly HappY Bday to Ying Bin!!!

TurnIng Sweet 21st!!! Yeah!!!
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Bought Alot of things before pay comes~~~ Wat to do ??? Now is sale period. U go anywhere aso got sale, Especially My fav Shop PSBB haha...bought sling bag for just 20 buck if not is 70 plus bucks. Who will buy??? Maybe i will ~~~ Ok after buying, went to eat Sakae buffet with miss tan~~~ She got new job liao le~~~ after that went to do pedicure which is just downstairs. The surrounding was so soothing that can sleep through d whole process~~~ Although i got discount from Dash( @suntec) & Voxy but i will do there cause lazy to go city leh!!!!

Haha...part 3 finally come out liao & i watched finished le!!! Wahaha...I mad liao le!!!!

2005-10-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hai~~ Have to work For 10 days straight then i will have my rest day@@@ OMG~~~

Had My flu vaccine on monday, met up with Miss Tan At SGH. as usual i was late again la!!! Made me So nervous when having jab, she stood beside me & made all kinda of noises. But dun tink nurses Dun scare of NeedLEs. i do Scare of needles althought i often gave ppl inj ah!!! After VaccIne, went to MarIna to eat sushi buffet ah!! Whoa very Full After that liao, shopped ard. Bought MNG tee & Gio Tee!!! Haha Spent $$ again!!!

Finally i dyed my hair again liao, but guess wat?? I neber dye it black or brown or Gold, But i dyed purple color ah!!!! Frens all said nice nice!!! Made me so happy ah, haha!!! Really make my day after that liao le!!

wondering whether wan to go for the dinner & dance of SGH anot?? Or go for the coverlook 1??? Still pending ah!!! Thinking hard now.

2005-10-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

Ya...been resting at home this 2 days...finished nite gg to start tom again. Nite Shifts again!! Better drink more water & eat more fruits. Otherwise my face is worse!!! Hee....

Ytd slept very late coz watching vcds...hee Frog prince. I am dead liao le...Poisoned by the show!!! Cant sleep without watching that!!!

Today even went to parkway to see whether Part 3 come out already anot?? Not yet!!!! When is coming out??? I cant wait for d ending le.... I think i gg to buy the story book to read & find out???? I am siao liao le.... I knw... Wat to do ??? It is fun to watch ppl falling in love & how it goes on & on?? Coz i had not encounter that mah!!! Hee...

neber bought vcd but bought mascara & lot & lots of food!!! Haha....
Haha.... tom working liao le!!! Super sian!!! Dun know wat to do now aso ???

2005-10-04T15:53:00.000+08:00

this my collegue...2 crazy gals taking pics after packing haha.

Tis my workplace haha...super messy during the nite!!!

Ha ha... nth better to do . so take pic in toilet ah!!!

2005-10-04T15:36:00.000+08:00

yeah finally finished my nite, but another one is cuming tis thurs liao le. hai....but yeah again coz got $$...BLINK BLINK!!!!!

On my 2nd night, i packed again. For all that dun knw this, is pack body lah!!! One of the unexpected ppl!!! but wat to do ??? Life are like that!!

Went to watch corpse bride ytd with Pauline!!!! super nice show. the movie is nice especially with JOhnny depp as the voice of the male character"Victor" My idol!!! haha....
after that went to makan dinner coz i slept thru the day not yet eaten. Walked ard marina & suntec. Bought eyeshadow & elizbeth arden eyebrow shaper& eyeliner!!! Hee... yeah!@@@ Bought blusher brush frm Body shop!!! Pauline wanted to buy eyeshadow crayon so intro her to Natural Source loh. & the ah gua in the shop was super pretty. I was in love with her/his eyes!!! haha but not in love with the whole person lah!!!

Die die . have to save $$...waiting for the prince vcd part 3 to come out!!! Faster faster i cant wait for the ending liao le!!! Help!!! I totally addict to it liao le!!!